Warning. This entry is for me to drain my emotions. This is not a happy post...just so you know.
So Today I met with Dr. Switlyk, well his assistant Julie, to talk of more shoulder stuff. My nerve test was flawless meaning my nerves are working just fine and communicating with each other like they are supposed to. There is not explanation as to why my muscule aren't growing to use the motion I can passivly get. The michanics of my replacment limit me to a point but my muscules should still carry me up to that point if they exsisted. Basically it comes down to this, I will be in pain for the rest of my life. The pain will get worse and worse. When I deside I can't bear the pain any longer, I will get the complete shoulder replacement. Which means, They will put a new socket on by drilling into the bone and screwing it in. After 15 years when it will enevitably fail (30% fail in 15 years), I will have to get it taken out, and get a bone graff to fill in the hole, basically putting me back to where I am now with bone on metal joint. And now we have come full painful circle. You can tell I'm exstatic.
Is there no hope for you building that muscle...at all? WOW? That really sucks!Sorry you have to have such sucky news...what about praying, fasting and such..stranger things have been healed for people..like Joseph Smith , for instance...his leg...remember...don't lose your faith sometimes the answers are not found in human hands sweetie! Keep strong mentally and spiritually that is what will carry through this horrible trial. Let this go into God's hands because I promise you this ...even though you can't handle it He can, and that is the truth!It will take sometime for you to stop resisting God's hand in this and let it go but when you do..AHHHH the freedom and peace you will find, truly! I know you will find your own way and when you do it will be FANTASTIC and you stand all amazed.
ReplyDeleteDanika, I'm so sorry. This must be so difficult. I agree with Danelle. Don't carry the burden yourself -- give your burdens to the Lord. As much as I don't understand what you're going through -- I know it does not have to be in vain. And that you weren't given this for nothing. We love you and are sending prayers your way for strength and clarity on how to handle this. I also don't believe in absolutes when it comes to doctors -- I think you can question anything such as is that truly and definitely the course your shoulder has to take. Is there potential for healing in other ways that we haven't discovered yet. Seek, you will find. You will learn. And you're not alone.
ReplyDeleteCan I ditto Danelle and Quincy?? The Lord has a direction for you, and you may just be His next miracle. Don't give up, keep working at building muscle, we'll lift our cans of refried beans or something. I'm so sorry you have to get such sucky news for the doctor, I hope you are feeling better today, and feel like you can prove the doctor wrong and embrace and lean on the Lord! Love you!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for comments on my blog I finally added you to my favorites and now I can check it more often. I'm sad to hear about your shoulder. You're always in my thoughts and I wish there was something more positive that I could say except that I loved what Danelle and Quincy and Julie have said. We love you so much. Hang in there!
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